Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Some Appreciation and Hope

"The root meaning of the word family is household, a gathering of people who take shelter together. No matter how troubled our households, we're going to keep on taking shelter together becuase we need one another..." Scott Russell Sanders, Hunting for Hope

This is not a normal post. Hunting for Hope is lovely, a balm of Gilead, though.

For the last seven weeks, my ward has been bringing dinner to a woman in our ward. Every night. Two more weeks to go. She crushed a joint in her foot, is on a walker, and needs extra help right now. Since I'm the compassionate service leader I've had the chance to talk with her often, coordinate meals, and bring meals when things fall through. On top of this, we've had other emergencies, surgeries, crises. On average, my Relief Society has brought in three meals a night to someone in the last two weeks, given rides, babysat, and zillions of other unseen, unreported, loving acts. I cringe a little every time I need to call another person to ask for more service--but no one hesitates. They say, "I'll make it work" and "Thank you for this opportunity" and I'm humbled wondering if I have such faith and gratitude and cheerfulness. Too often I feel overwhelmed by lists and urgencies, but they show me that love and compassion is just part of living. They teach me what it is to be followers of Christ, to be family, to shelter together even when there is so much smoke in the cave you can't see each other, even when our own problems reek, even when we just need a little air--we're family.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Open Mouthed and Wondering

I've been thinking about (missing) my dad today. And how Levi sometimes looks like him and I think, "How did Corrie get in there?" This (above) is not an expression I've seen from my father.

While very few things compare to scripture for me, every now and then I need a silly book. Yes, silly. Not poorly written, but strictly for fun. So I just listened to Shannon Hale's Austenland and giggled. Levi, poor kid, endured to the end. He liked the voice better than the reader of Candy Freak (which has interesting research, but the author is annoying and frankly, not even worth blogging about). Levi just awoke from his lengthy 20-minute nap and I'm remembering all the other things I should be doing because I recognize that this blog is mostly self-promotion and that thought makes me uncomfortable. Shannon Hale is enjoyable and recommendable.

Yesterday I shoved all the unrevised pieces I'm considering for my thesis and came out with a 100 page document. Crappy. Unpolished. Disconnected. But 100 pages. Perhaps I'll be able to pull this off by December as planned.

In other news, my essay "Full Stop," (previously known as "Period!") will be published in the next issue of Tusculum Review. Found out last week, and yes, I'm a bit giddy. I'll probably (unfortunately--check out these adverbs, will ya?--) get over this soon. But I am pleased. Wesley is narrowing our grad school options. We're down to 8 and need to go down two or three more since each application is about $90. I'm so excited to go (anywhere) with him; I do worry about leaving my writing friends, my workshop buddies, my essay posse. Who will tell me when I inadvertently make sexual comments, or when I should keep working on something, or when I really should just ditch an idea.

And, after Conference and a series of 3 a.m. revelation periods, I may be taking up poetry and even Emily Dickinson again.